Gratitude 2.

30 something- Alison



Well I have been thinking over the past couple of weeks about what is something that I wish I would have known in my 20's.  While doing this I came to the realization of "Holy Crap!!!!! I'm almost halfway through my 30's already!!  Where the f*!# has time gone"  Although I'm 34, I still feel like a teenager at heart!  

In all honesty, my 20's feel like a total blur to me. I was engaged at 21, started my career as a Probation Officer at 21, convocated from University at 22, married at 22, had my first baby at 23, a second baby at 24 and then a third at 28.  When looking back, I realize I was moving into all of these NEW roles/phases of my life (wife, mother, career woman) and I was barely out of my teen years. I had barely figured out who I WAS yet let alone trying to take on/master the new roles I was attempting to take on!  Since I barely knew who I was at this point in my life, I found myself constantly questioning and doubting my abilities to take on these new roles and succeed at them.

That being said, the one character/trait that I wish I would have possessed in my 20's that I have most definitley gained in my 30's is CONFIDENCE!!!  I remember always being concerned about "what others thought of me" and "if I was doing the right thing". I questioned myself  in all aspects of my life whether it was my role as a wife, mother, friend or career woman/mother. I felt the need to portray I had mastered all of these roles when I really didnt have the confidence in myself to BELIEVE in my abilities and power to be successful as a mother, wife, friend and career woman all a the same time.

Moving into my late 20's and early 30's I have realized confidence is the most important trait you can possess.  I have accepted the everyday challenges that come with being a mother, wife, friend and career woman.  I am CONFIDENT I can take on these roles and succeed.  Yes, I still stumble along the way and question myself at times but I pick myself up and keep on keeping on :-)  I no longer care what others think about ME or how I may take on these roles in  my life.  I have a wonderful support system (friends, family, husband and kids) who support and encourage me to continue trying to be the best person I can be. They compliment me, love me and lift me up when I am down.  They push me to do better and go outside of my comfort zone.  They believe in me when sometimes I may not believe in myself. From this, I gain the CONFIDENCE I need.  

"CONFIDENCE IS KEY!!!! IF YOU DON'T BELIEVE IN YOURSELF, THEN NOBODY WILL"
-unknown author-   

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