3 purple lies

Okay, I think I have this under control

I'm officially one week into my new role as a working mom and I think I have it figured out. Kinda.
And let me tell you, it wasn't easy.
I've been testy, tired, grumpy, impatient and a bore to be around this week, and it feels like I'm in a rut.
But just when I want to throw in my gloves and call it a game, I meet my students and they win me over. I have been blessed with some great kids this semester and I'm really looking forward to getting to know them better. It's nice to be able to laugh with them during my day and it definitely makes it easier to be at work.
But not that easy.
I just find it so hard to re-establish the good that I had going in my routine as a full time mommy and wife. 2 weeks ago my life was figured out. I was excercising, our meals were nutritious, the house was cleaned and I had time for the husband and time for me.
Now I feel like I'm back at square one.

My struggles:
  • I need to find a good time to workout because I've discovered this week that anytime after 6 pm is useless as I'm physically drained.  Waking up early isn't an option as Lucia has been getting up at 6am and throughout the night. I need my sleep to survive the day but I need to keep exercising because I'm finally getting somewhere.
  • Having enough energy to play with my kids.  I think the thing that has been bothering me the most is that now I have all this school stuff to think about when really I just want to be colouring and playing.  A balance will be necessary.
  • My feet aren't conditioned to wear heels all day yet.
  • Meal planning has taken a huge nose dive.  Normally on Sundays I sketch out our week's meals and get the groceries.  So I did that on Sunday but now I'm finding that I haven't the energy to cook them.  Oy.
  • Teaching is one of those professions where there is always something to do and I feel bad that I'm not putting as much effort into it as I normally would because when I'm home I want to focus on my family.
My strengths:
  • I LOVE dressing up, doing my hair and makeup in the mornings.  I'm just going to have to rotate my heels so my feet don't break.
  • I LOVE picking Lucia up after a day.  She is so giddy and huggy and lovey!!
  • It's nice to be bringing home a pay cheque, which makes me able to dream of the fun things we can do as family.
  • I now have the freedom to go to the bathroom without someone following me! Imagine that.
  • I feel no guilt whatsoever when I watch crap TV each night.  Even though there are a million other things I should be doing, I NEED that time to just sit and laugh without making my brain work.
Speaking of overworking my brain, this dissertation of sorts is pushing it.  I'm out.


  1. I hear you on the running part. I am useless after supper too. I ran during my prep on Tuesday (no kids in the weight room) and then did my prep during the last 1/2 of my prep and lunch. I look stuff to shower (but didn't wash my hair - just left it pulled up). It worked pretty well. I am going to try again tomorrow. Good Luck. Oh, my feet are killing me too - but heels are so cute!


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