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Just what I needed

Jordan, Heidi and I (along with other greats, like Kerri, Tanya, Nic....) used to spend 3 hours, 3 times a week driving back and forth to Shellbrook for ball games or practices.  This gave us plenty of time to hash out our lives, bounce ideas off of one another and listen to each other's problems.
I have been missing that time.
This year we're playing ball in Saskatoon with a bunch of new, fabulous girls which has been fantastic. Mixing in the old with the new has been a great change for me.  I do, however, miss the drive. Wait, I don't think it's the drive I miss so much as the therapy sessions with the girls.
There's only so much visiting Heidi and I can do on the bench and Jordan chose not to play this year after losing Tripp, which I definitely understand, but I can say that I miss her out on the field.  She's a gifted athlete.
So last night, we managed to get some time where we could meet and catch up.
And it was just what I needed.  I don't know what…

The stink eye

Last night while Lucia and I were chatting with uncle Robbie (with the muscles) on skype, in between her flirtatious grins she only saves for her uncles, she struck me in the eyeball with my glasses.
A visit to minor emerg later and 2 scratches on my cornea and I'm one unhappy chick.
Perma-stink eyed pirate over here. This is the most uncomfortable injury I have ever had and the worst thing is that laying down with my eyes closed is the best thing I can do. Boring and difficult when kids require care. I don't do being patient well. But alas, I have no choice.

What's your favourite social media?

Twitter? Blogging? Facebook? Pinterest? Hashtag fail?

It's funny to think that those words meant absolutely nothing 10 years ago to me.  Now they are a part of my everyday life.  One could say that we waste too much time on the interweb, and I can agree with that to a certain extent. It shouldn't consume us.  We should know when to go visit with family, or to get some fresh air.  It's just like anything else that can 'take' away from living.  Finding a balance is essential.  Everything in moderation.
Really, I don't think social media is all that bad.  Never would I have thought I'd blog and share my feelings with anybody who wants to read it.  Never would I have thought I'd read someone else's blog and be able to feel a connection with them, regardless if I know them or not.  I think that's what it's really about, the connections we make with other people.  It's a strange but nevertheless effective way to keep up with people, to share …

The mother of all lists.

I like lists.
Every night before I go to bed, I make a list of things I'd like to accomplish the next day and as that day goes on, I cross off my successes and transfer the leftover to-dos to the next day. Crossing things off my list gives me a sense of productivity; of progress.
The Happiness Plan also talks about this, about eliminating the 'nagging' tasks off our to-do lists.  Recently the husband asked me what were my priorities on my to-do list.  I had to think.  And then I realized that my list in the summer is multi-faceted.
I have a list for a sunny nice day, a list for a rainy day, a list for things I want husband to do, a list of things I'd like to do given 10 hours on the computer, a list for house cleaning, a list for short term and long term house beautification, a list of video or photo related projects.....the list could go on. Bahahah.
My lists are out of control!!!!!!!!!
I don't even know what to do from here.  Do I just keep with the status quo?…

{this moment}

A Friday ritual. A single photo capturing a moment from the week. A simple, special, extraordinary moment. A moment I want to pause, savor and remember.

There were a lot of moments this week but hands down meeting a new baby takes the cake.

As friends, we share everything (more so recipes and parenting tips than boyfriends and bras as in the days of yore) and it is always extra special when a friend has a baby.
We all wait impatiently for that sacred text and are giddy with excitement from the moment word comes. That's what friends do: we share our joys, our sorrows, our achievements, our blessings and our hardships.

Congrats Carmen, Eric and Koen on the birth of sweet Liam. We love him already.

Look good, feel good.

Part of the plan of happiness for me is making sure I take that extra step in the mornings to get ready for my day.  Which means more than just putting on sweats, my hair in a ponytail and quickly applying mascara and some blush.  I know that when I put in the extra effort and actually get done up then stuff gets done during the day.
That being said, I've also been taking  more steps in my own routine to get me feeling better, such as:
1- an amped up exercise routine.  I even rollerbladed to ball practice last night. Psychooooooo.
2- laser hair removal. I seriously don't know what took me so long to do this. It's the best thing invented, especially in the summer.  No more shaving my underarms!!!
3- teeth whitening.  I only did this because there was a Groupon for it and because I love white teeth.  I definitely think my top teeth were quite white as it is (thanks to whitestrips) but the sides and my bottoms didn't match.  I went with WhiteScience and am very impressed.…

Summer foods

I've been on a Quinoa kick for a bit, trying out different recipes to get this super food into our family regime.
So far I have two favourite recipes.

The first is a Quinoa Veggie Burger from Chatelaine.  I made a couple alterations to it: I didn't serve it on a portabella mushroom but on a bun and I topped with swiss cheese because really, anything with cheese is better, if you ask me.

The second recipe that I love is Kraft's Mediterranean Quinoa Salad.
If you like Greek salads then you'll definitely appreciate this one.  The Quinoa adds a nice texture to a salad, especially when it's mixed in with the feta cheese.
Hmm... feta cheese, here we go again.

So there you have it, my current kitchen obsession.
I'm just glad that I've moved on from the winter that was overtaken by cookies.

Willis Day

If you were to ask Will what he wants to be when he grows up, he will respond:  a Dad.
Now we're obviously not going to push that right away.  Just like we're not going to push Lucia in the direction she'd likely take right now which would either be a dog or a caveman considering how much she barks or grunts in a day.  Come on, we want them to be ambitious but there's a limit.

Willis did, however, get a chance to walk in Daddy's shoes today for the sake of a cute photoshoot but then what ended in a day long game of "No, my name is Daddy".  Whenever the tie was on, he was Daddy and Dan was Willis.

This is what 'Daddy' does in a day of work.

Looks like he's just about as productive as his Dad.

The Daddy Files: Father's Day

Happy Father's Day, Dan! Your children absolutely adore you and I think that's a perfect testament to the wonderful Father you are to them.

Also a Happy Father's Day to my #1 Dad.  You are the best and I couldn't have asked for a better Daddy.  Everything you have done for us in life has not gone unnoticed and we are better kids because of you.  Thanks for all you do for us.  I know it's been a rough year for you and the cancer treatments have stolen your energy but hang in there, you're almost half way done and that means you're closer to the last dose and then that means we can celebrate you all year next year! Blue Jay games! Snowmobile rides! Biking! Lake! You name it, we'll do it.
Love you lots!

The Daddy Files: Day three

Meet James, husband of Christy.  James is a devoted, caring and hard working Dad.  I admire his values and the down to earth approach he has in parenting.  He has a great sense of humour and puts his family first.  He's a great man!

Meet John, wife of Stacey.  I actually haven't met John, they are friends of Christy and James and she was the only one to answer my "invite your friends to respond too".  Any friend of Christy's is obviously going to be cool and after reading John's answers (and maybe stalking Stacey's blog), I think that they would be the type of people we'd be friends with.

Meet Robbie, husband of Kyla, broinlaw of moi.  Rather new to the Daddy scene, Robbie is a natural.  I love seeing the smile on his face when Kinsey comes into the room; he absolutely lights up!  He's a wonderful Dad who isn't afraid to say 'no' and set the boundaries, which will be admiral qualities once Kinsey is loose in the world!  We'll see i…

The Daddy Files: Day two

Meet Eric, husband of Carmen.  He's probably one of the kindest guys I know and is always easy to talk to and positive to be around.  He is also 3 sleeps away from meeting his second child.  Life is about to change again, Eric!  I have to hand it to Carm and Eric, they manage their lives despite Eric being on the road every other week.  He is definitely a committed Dad!

Meet Mark, husband of Alynne.  I have the utmost respect for this guy because of how happy he makes one of my dearest friends.  Mark works hard, plays hard and loves even stronger.  He is also one of the few Dads that I've heard say "Hey, let me watch the boys, you girls go visit".  Love it!
Meet Graham, husband of Melissa.  Graham is genuinely kind, down to earth and I really think that he and Mel make a fabulous team and are doing an even better job of raising two wonderful boys.

The Daddy Files: Day one

Welcome to the testosterone version of the Mommy Diaries:  the Daddy Files.  I'm actually quite impressed that I received more than just my husband's response on this one.  I was expecting the men to be more reluctant to open up but I think you'll be pleasantly surprised that you're just not seeing an excerpt from Dan.
I think the men in our lives deserved to be celebrated as they often are overlooked and carry a lot of weight on their shoulders.  Dads play a huge role in influencing our children and, moms out there, we should give them a break recognize that and say thank you for all they do.  Here's to the Daddy Files!

Meet Mike, husband of Tanya.  A hard working man who does everything he possibly can to provide for his family including working away from home during the week.  It can't be easy being away from your children and beautiful wife!

Meet Mason, husband of Lisa.  Another Dad who works hard to be a great example for his family.  He decided on a major…

Lessons learned.

I spent a lot of the day yesterday reflecting on how much my life has changed since Kelly's death 10 years ago and I can't help but think that the majority of these changes were brought on because she left us and I was forced to ask questions and reevaluate my priorities.  You see, 10 years ago was a pivotal time in my life.  I had just convocated for University with my Ed degree and was subbing before starting my career as a teacher, back at my alma mater.  I was single and just kinda floating around, not sure where I was going to end up or what I wanted.
And then she left us and my whole world was rocked.  I can't help but think my angel helped to guide me in becoming a better person.  She was a brilliant teacher and I strived to be like her.  She had a great relationship and fiancé and later that year I'd meet my match; she helped me set my bar high. Because of her and everything that was lost that day, I have since pushed myself to make the most of my life.  Sure, …

On losing a friend

June 14th, 2001.

It has been 10 years without Kelly. 10 years of tears, heartache and stories that she would only understand left untold.  10 years of spiritual growth as I try to wrap my brain around a dear friend leaving this earth far too soon and what that leaves me believing about a loving God.

I remember that day far too clearly.  It was a Thursday and we were in the process of planning Alison's bridal shower.  Kelly and Alison were both planning weddings for that summer and Ali's bridal shower/stagette would fall that weekend.  Our last phone conversation would be about the underwear we were going to buy Alicat for the stagette portion.
That Thursday I geared up for a ball game in Shellbrook, looking forward to a weekend with the girls.  I remember we were playing Debden and were batting.  Grandma and Grandpa were sitting in the bleachers watching and when I saw my Dad pull up I was curious, concerned and just happy to see him.  I ran out to speak to him but could alrea…

on Lucia turning one.

A book I'm reading right now summed up best how I'm feeling:
"The days are long, but the years are short" (The Happiness Project)
Maybe I feel this way because it's her first birthday and in a year she has gone from being the most dependent sweet little being to an independent mini-toddler who can express herself in the oddest ways.  (insert high pitch scream for milk)
We have witnessed every sense of her being develop in this year, from her eyesight, to her motor skills, to her voice, to her strength. We have also experienced what a baby in the 3rd percentile is like.  Best part: her still being so little and making me feel like she's staying a baby longer for us.  Worst part: Random comments/knowledge from strangers ranging from: you should feed her more to is she a little person?
To say a baby can change in the first year is an understatement, Lucia has transformed right before our eyes and it has been a thrill and an honour to be a part of her world.
We c…

Lucia Kelly, the one year old.

Today is the day we celebrate the birth of our little girl, Lucia, who brings so much light into our world.
I have many things that I want to say to my sweet doll, but that will have to wait.  For now there is a cake to be iced, a house to be tidied, food to be prepped, coffee to be drank, goodie bags to be tied and wonderful family and friends to catch up with on this beautiful day.
So I'll gush sentimental pride after the weekend and after I've had a chance to catch up on sleep.  I tend to make a little more sense when I'm not running on fumes anyway.
Until then, enjoy a video in honour of our baby girl (which is the reason I'm lacking sleep)
What we don't do for our kids :)

Lucia is one! from Dee on Vimeo.

{this moment}

{this moment} – A Friday ritual. A single photo capturing a moment from the week. A simple, special, extraordinary moment. A moment I want to pause, savor and remember.

Today I spent my morning on the deck, sipping a coffee, listening to the birds and trying to keep Lucia from eating too much dirt.  A picture perfect morning, if you ask me.

Mixed emotions

That was weird.
I spent the past year of my mat leave dreading the moment I would have to start thinking about going back to work.
I don't even know if 'dreading' is the right word. I love my job, don't get me wrong, but going back to work means the end of a great year.  The end of my baby being a baby.  The end of endless hours of quality time with my kids.  You can't get that back.  Finito.  So hence the dread, the fear, the anxiety, the tears, the questioning of my get the picture.  It's something that's going to happen regardless if I learn how to freeze frame/rewind time before August 26th.
But then yesterday I came home from ball to an email from my department head wanting to get in touch with me so we can talk schedule for next year.
And here comes the weird.
I was SO excited to learn that I'm back at Holy Cross and then I found myself smiling (and not sobbing) because it was time to talk about what I'd be teaching.
I love pl…

Oh, Willis.

This afternoon as I discussed quiet time with Willis and what he'd be doing, he incessantly begged for a movie.
Willis LOVES movies.
I was reluctant to cave, as I've been trying to be mindful of the minutes he spends in front of the TV, but then he comes up on my lap, grabs my face between his two little boy hands, stares me in the eyes and says, and I'm not making this up: "Mommy, you're beautiful.  I love your hair cut".
And just like that, I'm putty in his hands.
Now, what I want to know is who taught him those lines and maybe if they could teach them to my husband?

June 7, 2003.

8 years ago today, Dan took a leap of faith and asked for my hand in marriage.  Obviously I was going to say yes.  He's a catch and I wasn't letting him go.
At that point in June of 2003, we had only been dating for 16 months and I was not expecting nor I was a stressing about an engagement.   I was used to a romantic, thoughtful Dan and therefore thought nothing of the fact that Dan welcomed me into his condo wearing a suit.  Treasure hunts, flowers, letters, cards....all this was a norm in our young relationship.
I came into Saskatoon that weekend for a job interview with Stoon Catholic at Saskatoon French School.  It was a warm Saturday evening and I was nervous because I was more than ready to make the jump from P.A to Saskatoon to be closer to my man.  I remember the interview very clearly and the tour of the school.  I recall being very positive after the meeting and being super excited to get home and tell Dan about it. 
He answered the door in his black suit with a big…

Take me out to the ball game

This past weekend I returned to my homeawayfromhome turf of Shellbrook to play some ball.  But this was the first time in 13 years that I wasn't sporting the Ganza jersey.  In fact, this is the first time that I haven't played ball with the same girls, the same coaches and the same routine.  Long gone are the days when it was feasible to leave at 5 for a game and return at 11.  The long drives were fabulous, giving me time with my girlfriends, but it just became much to difficult to juggle with kids.
So that leaves a gaggle of girls who still love the game and were needing a Saskatoon team.  We hooked up with another bunch of girls who were looking for another half and voilà, we are now the Saskatoon Elite.
I'm not going to lie, I was pretty nervous joining up with another bunch of girls as girls can be notoriously....scary.  But we couldn't have been luckier.  The girls we have joined forces with are fantastic in all senses.  Not only are they kind and not catty but t…

{this moment}

{this moment} – A Friday ritual. A single photo capturing a moment from the week. A simple, special, extraordinary moment. A moment I want to pause, savor and remember.

A rainy night at home with no distractions is sometimes just what I need.  While Lucia was snuggled up sleeping last night, Willis and Dan settled in to do some "work" while I made a test cake for Lucia's bday next week.  It was quiet, peaceful and fun to have everybody doing something together in the same space.
Willis didn't mind being the tester of the cake either.

The project of Happiness

I can't help but be inspired by my friend, Jordan, for many reasons: She has faced the ugliest side of life and she's still going.  She doesn't hide from her emotions and wears her heart on her sleeve.  And despite probably feeling more sorrow than anyone should have to deal with in life, she is still looking for ways to make her life a better life. Now if that isn't enough to move you to be a better person, then I'm not sure what is.
So to honour her and show her that the dominoes of her life are spilling over to mine, I'm hopping on board her Happiness Project.
Book bought and reflecting has begun.  I'm only 3 chapters in and have already had some great revelations on how I want to live my life.
Although this project is both short term and long term and until I've read the entire book and been able to wrap my brain around the entire transformation, I figured I could start with a few short term goals.

Goal 1: Do what brings passion to my life.
When I t…