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Balance

I remember before Lucia was born being scared.  Would I love the new baby as much as I love Willis?  Would I be able to find that balance between both of their needs?  Would I still have time for my husband?  Would I still have time for myself?  Those questions were a heavy weight on my shoulders and  I didn't know how it would all turn out. The first two weeks of having two kids were the most difficult.  I remember feeling so overwhelmed and unsure of my abilities. But that didn't last long; overnight my insecurities seemed to disappear.  I'm in a different place with two than I was with just one.  When Willis was born I still needed that precious time away, I somehow needed to maintain my identity, but now that old me is so long gone that I'm quite content to stay home to play, bake, doodle and rock the blanket fort. I'm still the crazy Deena I was 5-10 years ago, but I've found the balance in life to maintain all my loves.  I always wondered how I'd be able to love the new baby as much as I loved Will. Well, it seems that I pulled a Grinch the day Lucia was born and my heart grew three sizes that day!

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